I have forgiven you.
I have forgiven me.
I look into the mirror and realize that I could never change what is happening
I would not blame you. Ever since. Never will.
I knew I played a big part and I’d want you to know that it was so hard for me
It was so hard to let go of everything
It was like hell, when I was alone, I kept thinking if I never did it with you
More likely we’d still be funny to each others
I never forgive myself for what has happened now to us
You will never look the same anymore
I can never see you like I saw you before
God, how I despise myself for this
So many if-s come out of my head
I never regret what we had done
I regret that everything just changes now
I am really sorry
I can never tell you this eyes to eyes
For I am afraid what is going to happen next
I am afraid worse things will happen
That we will be farther
I am anxious, that you are going to leave, your physics and your mind
That you will never think of me anymore
I am afraid, so afraid that I ask you’d never go any further with that one
Everything changes. I am sorry.