Knocking My Brain to Kill Boredom


I am writing now in the midst of waiting my flight to Lombok via Bali, departing in 8 more hours. I should wait for that long and I have no idea what to do despite being in such a tourist city with so many beaches here and there. I guess I am still tired and I want to ponder , while being distracted with one funny Korean clips lol.

I’ve abandoned this blog for like months. It’s not that I do not have any ideas of what to write, I’ve got a lot actually. I have some books I want to review, I have some topics I want to talk (starting from those Lolicon bastards to my current adored figure, Elon Musk), and I decide to take a writing project with my long-time friends. Yet I was unable to commence anything because I am too perfectionist inside my head lol, lack of perseverance and enjoying Korean videos too much my leisure time is all for it lol. Apparently, my fighting spirit needs to be upgraded hhi.

Well, Imma starting with books I have finished so far and making a quick review of them. Imma killing this longggg transit time!!


  1. A Hunchback of Notredame

So I started 2017 with one of Victor Hugo’s masterpiece. Not familiar with him? Well, he’s the original author of Les Miserable. He is one of respected French authors and had a unique delivery of his story. I only have read one of his masterpiece, which is this A-Hunchback of Notredame, and I concluded that he was very obsessed with details in history of every places appeared in his novel which some of them did not have any direct connection with the characters. I remember reading a chapter, one full chapter, explaining about an area in Paris, the story behind the making of it. To be honest I was bored to death. The main premise of this novel was not visible until, like, reaching the middle part of this novel. It was tiring to death, and I kinda forced myself to finish this and postponed reading another. Do you know how long it took to finish this? 6 months! lol.

The main story revolves the people living in French during 1840-ish, if I’m not mistaken. During that time, there were many immigrants in Paris, most of them were gypsies who were known to practice magics and thus, outcast and hated by many Parisians. They were in the bottom part of society back then. There was Esmeralda, a young gypsy girl living with her smart goat, professing as hmm, an entertainer. She showcased her dance along with her goat’s ability to spell human’s names. She put an interest with Phoebe, a Parisian soldier, who seemingly liked her too. Esmeralda did not have parents since she was a kid but she was left with a necklace, which she believed was left by her parents on purpose. She had this gut feeling that her parents, her mother ( I forgot why she was sure it’s her mother) was still alive.

Then there were these other two important characters, Claude de Frollo and Quasimodo. Claude de Frollo was one of political figure in Paris, well-known for his intelligence and level-headedness. He found Quasimodo when Quasimodo was still a baby and raised him, helped him live in society to be a bell-ringer in Notre-dame church. Quasimodo was described as having a monstrous look, having only one-eye with a hump in his back. It didn’t stop there, he was also deaf, and that often caused misunderstandings with other citizens. Many people were scared of his (at that time looks really mattered, guys) hence, he was isolated. Both Frollo and Quasimodo loved Esmeralda. Frollo was even so obsessed with her, that he’d rather Esmeralda died than married other guy. Compared to love possessed by Quasimodo, which made him wish and expect nothing but Esmeralda’s happiness and safety, Frollo’s was the start of all problems in this novel.

I will tell no more about the story, I guess I still recommend you to read this book. You can learn a bit about French history, especially Notre-dame church, since it was really there in Paris. Also, a bell-ringer who had same description like Quasimodo’s actually existed and some guessed that he inspired Victor Hugo. Also, this novel got a damn right moral lesson, that is still relatable for current age. How people with different background, personality, physics, who are deemed abnormal, were often cast aside. Discrimination is still everywhere…

Rating  : 3/5

2. The Great Gatsby

Okay, old sports! Let’s get to the point lol. This novel started with a really ordinary-life situations from a point of view of Nick Carraway. He was the neighbor of Jay Gatsby, our main character, and the cousin of Daisy Buchanan, Gatsby’s long-time ex-lover, now a wife of Tom Buchanan. This story revolves around the failure in moving on, push and pull, which led to fatal tragedy in the end of the story. This was my first time reading F. Scott Fitzgerald ‘s and I experienced curiosity in every pages. I was interested with the stereotypings of people in West and East bay and such, lol. I guess stereotyping was really really intense back then. And the twist in the end was really unexpected. After all, I did not really expect Daisy would want to sacrifice everything, her unpleasant marriage too, for Gatsby, I mean, that was like uncommon problem solution for adultery lol. But I don’t expect Gatsby will… fiuih he was willing to sacrifice himself to cover Daisy. and Tom the Coward, ck.

Gatsby was a party leader. He was a millionaire who made many ‘friends’ and they were always there in Gatsby’s house whenever he threw parties. But apparently no-one, but Nick and his father, was there during his hard time. Well, old sports, that’s why you should know well who your true friends are.

Rating : 5/5

3. Start-up Nation: The Story of Israel’s Economic Miracle

This is the first non-fiction book I read in 2017 and everytime people saw me with this book, they looked like I was reading some kind of Adam Smith’s or Parkin’s lol. This book is insightful and helping you be more briefly knowledgeable about Israel and its economic system, but with a nice delivery. Neither Senor or Singer threw those freaky economics terminologies; believe me, they wrote with humane languages lol.

Israel knows their limitation in term of natural resources and number of citizens and that’s the reason why they depend much on R&D and technology. The government also encourages entrepreneurship that it becomes a ‘thing’ there, while people in other nations still considers it as a job with no certain income. They keep seeking of improvement in anything they created to have more effective results. That is what makes Israel a country with the second highest spending on innovation and one of the highest with patent registrations. That is why so many companies from developed countries invest their R&D in Israel despite their not supportive external environment (The Gulf, war with Palestine). Despite its size, Israel was early to catch the benefit of technology could give to human beings.

I was inspired with Israel’s perseverance, mentality, and out-of-the-box thinking through this book. They strived so hard to build their nation by investing more in technology, which can improve their was of living and also contributes to country’s economy. Their strong mentality is mostly contributed by the military background that all of citizens commonly shared. I realize that I live way more comfortably than Israeli. My parents were raising me and my bro-sis really hard but it’s nothing compared to Israel’s situation though lol.

Their nation itself is pretty much a start-up

Things I learned from them :

  • Dare to throw opinions and constructive criticism,
  • Dare to accept criticism also, despite the source being someone under your rank/age
  • Dare to commit for goals and strive for the implementation, no matter how difficult the circumstances are (especially compared to what Israel is facing)
  • Dare to make as many alternatives and adjustments as they can not only in business but also in life, since this whole world is full of uncertainty
  • Dare to explore ‘world’ and experience adventure to get a perfectly clear sight of your own goals
  • Dare to take risks (this one is hard, old sport, I’m a risk-averse hiks)
  • =

From this book, I also got to conceptualize a life I want to have; Life I can do my personal things freely, improve myself day by day, and seek for adventure, even in my daily life lol.

Indirectly, I also learn that Success is not achieved in one night. There are processes that needs a lot of patience, a realization that one needs to improve more and more, and you gotta be ready for it. lol

Rating : 5/5

4. The Great Divorce

My favorite Christian author, C.S.Lewis. I’m back reading his work of fiction, describing about a world before hell and heaven. The ones who are saved and deserved heaven, the ones who can only see a little glimpse of it from a far and have to continue journey to the opposite direction. Pretty much the book tells us that. Well, it’s not a matter of your good and wrong deeds. A mother who loved his son so much that she’d rather have her son and herself go to hell for being together did not deserve heaven.

This book also tells that heaven is not about you, not about your enjoying the gold and the joy only for yourself. Heaven is a place in which you will not find any sufferings, since God is the source of your happiness. He is your joy, and thus, worthy much of your praise. In heaven, your life of full worshiping him begins. We, as a re-born Christian, do that on earth. But this earth is sinful, since here evils occupy this earth also. Even though an author wants to fully worship God through his writings, there are times he falls for a selfish goal of wanting fame for himself. That’s just an example, though. In Heaven, God is really the center of everything. You must give up any kind of earthly affections you have and let Him replace it with His affection so that you can love in His way.

Lewis is really a smart and talented author. Such a philosopher. A fairy-tale lover. A deep thinker. I want to be like him.

I need to persevere first.

Rating : 5/5

Okay So that’s all my readings so far. Going to update you more about mmmm maybe about my upcoming fiction writing project with my friend. 🙂

I guess I’d like to take my time for a relaxing massage while still waiting for my flight 🙂




Wuthering Heights was what made me fall in love with classics. Up till now, no more stories could give me a strong impact, a cold chill, such that book gave. Emily Bronte clearly described how love and ambition could either destruct or construct.

The story was anti-mainstream at its age, when mostly romance told romance. Wuthering Heights combined really greatly the love story, family issue, bigotry, and tragedy. The plot twist was not much, but each characters were strong figures and very distinctive. Here also people could see how egoistic love that human has is. I followed each chapters and scenes and concluded that the story inside was happening as the results of their decisions. That is why the story was so flowing and smoothly progressing towards the end.

I’m not talking much about the novel. I do not think I will do justice to re-tell it, or review it, since the book is such a perfection to me. But I know I have to tell someone, to tell you, that this book is great and you should read this classic! Like, you can learn that what’s not going to be, will never be. Sometimes, if you’re lucky, you will unite with the one(s) you care and love when you die and you are buried side by side lol. Nope that’s not it of course.

I am here to tell you about my favorite character, Hareton Earnshaw! Despite his appearance was only in the near-to-end parts, I care for him. Because one, in my opinion he is the only pure soul in the story and second, he is a victim, a collateral damage of what his father, his grandmother, even his auntie, Catherine Earnshaw, the love of Heathcliff, did and he did not deserve it. He was treated so inhumanely by Heathcliff, even worse than the treatment received by Heathcliff. He was raised as uncivilized boy, only knew how to work in farm and dealt with animals. Girls were not mesmerizing for him until he met Cathy, his own cousin that he fell in love.

…He appeared to have bent his malevolence on making him a brute: he was never taught to read or write; never rebuked for any bad habit which did not annoy his keeper; never led a single step towards virtue, or guarded by a single precept against vice.

Unfortunately, he was disliked by her for his unintelligent code of conduct, while in fact he never learnt what was proper and what was not. He could not show his love and care properly because he was shown differently (by his so-kind uncle,Heathcliff), thus made Cathy chose Linton over him. He was the one who helped Cathy and yet being mistaken for his motive by her. My, life is so unfair for him. He was so eager to learn to read but he was being laughed at. Huhuhu I was crying at that scene. He seek for personal growth, unconsciously but the only one supportive was Nelly while Cathy just kept underestimating him. He silently lamented Heathcliff’s death, thinking Heathcliff’s been a father to him while Heathcliff hurt and ruined his life. He was the punching bag of Wuthering Heights (, unknown year).

Even though his life started so roughly, it slowly changed towards some happy moments, leading to a better life. Cathy finally taught him to read. He learnt how to live like a civilized guy. lol.  I don’t mean to spoil anything, but the story at least gave justice to him. If not, I might have put the book on fire since I could not stand to remember how cruel Bronte to him. Like, it’s enough for Hareton to taste the aftermath of an injustice  in Wuthering Heights.Even though Linton and Cathy did too, but at least they tasted a love from their parent (ironically, Cathy was so loved by Edgar Linton while Linton was with Isabella Linton– ones who read will probably get this). They also knew how to read and spell, they were taught which one was right and not, they recognized what made people happy and what not. They could have a perspective towards life, planned to have a life like this and that. While Hareton… They knew how to behave well. Yeah, I could name more, and more of them. Perhaps these are my subjective thoughts, but for me, Linton and Cathy had better life in the beginning.

Upss I forgot that Nelly loved Hareton so much. But unfortunately Heathcliff separated them for so long that Hareton was grown up not remembering even a thing about her 😦

Also, I guess Heathcliff, to some extent, genuinely cared for him (this is debatable for me, tho) since he was carried some features of Heathcliff’s love of his life. Of course, Hareton and Catherine The Mom were Earnshaws!

Of course, I never not learn anything from my favorite character in a book. From Hareton Earnshaw, I know that no matter how slumped you are, how unrefined you are raised (because of the situation or people), you can still change your life so long as you have a strong motivation to grow. That motivation can be from other person, or a special thing you want to achieve. Hareton, who never knew that his life was hugely not decent, was driven by a strong want to impress Cathy and also a curiosity.

Also, no matter how isolated one is from an actual, genuine form of care, he/she will be able to feel it once he/she meets a person they are attracted too and wanting to act to it.

That’s all my plea for this guy. I hope that you all, who is going to read Wuthering Heights, can show some love and care for Hareton 🙂

A Gift for Easter

April 5th, 2015.

And I think I fall
And I fall for the Impossible
That Impossible, though it really is impossible,
never leaves my mind

I cant get enough of the Impossible
Every time the night comes
I hope the sun will rise soon
And I will see the Impossible again
While my chance is only that far 

images (1)Happy Easter! Happy (End-of-) Holiday! For those who believe in Christianity, Jesus has (been) resurrected from the death. Recently I question this phenomenon, in personal term. Like, what is the meaning of that for me? Knowledge-wise, there is no difficulty in learning that this has something to do with (uncountable) sin and the guarantee of resurrection and eternal life for those who put their belief in Him. But I just do not know this, like, then? So? Well, anybody would like to explain? Lol.

And I am starting to wonder whether I am going to be a free-thinker after this. Lol. Kidding.

Ehm, okay since this is a personal thing, let’s just stop here. Anyway, I wanna inform you that in my super long and indefinite hiatus from this blog, I read few books (fiction and nonfiction), probably around 7. Mostly I did not finish them. Well, I plan to continue reading them in the mean time (which is not defined yet). Fortunately in the midst of my struggle with this so-called reader’s block, I managed to finish two books, namely The Girl Who Played With Fire and Ksatria, Putri, dan Bintang Jatuh. Honestly, the first one I mentioned was quite disappointing. I barely had any favorite scenes and I was really, really bored and almost gave up reading it unless I remember that I like Lisbeth Salander and Stieg Larsson, the author.

So, in order to cherish few memories about these books, to encourage my realizing commitment to this blog, and to give every one of you a nearly objective opinion and suggestion, I am gonna write a short review for each.

* The Girl Who Played With Fire by Stieg Larsson



This is the sequel of Stieg Larsson’s The Girl With The Dragon Tattoo (for review, click here). The story began showing Lisbeth’s life after separating herself with Mikael Blomkvist, travelling here and there and enhancing her appearance and lifestyle after getting much money from her hacking activities. While enjoying her peaceful life, her guardian, Nils Burjman, was looking for the way to revenge her. He was busy searching for any clues of Lisbeth’s past life that might be giving him some helps.

Meanwhile, Mikael, still continuing his journalist-life in Millenium, got a ‘love-call’ from a man named Dag Svensson,who said had a meaningful and reliable information regarding sex-trafficking that involve people in the law and politic world. Dag was willing to expose this public secret through Millenium. Since Millenium was a magazine that always went against the popular stream, Mikael received this offer, without knowing the impact of this to everyone close to him, including the disappearing Lisbeth.

That is all the bloops for this novel. I was really hooked with the first of this series. I was so freakin amazed with the plot and characters. I even remembered the time I read that one, my heart pumped and my brain pictured clearly every descriptions there, and my body felt exhausted even though I did not move any inch just because I could connect with experiences happened there. But it did not occur to me when reading the sequel. It is just waaaay too boring and I just hoped to quickly finish reading this. I was really sure this happened not because of the block in my mind, at least that was not the major reason. I thought the revealing was too long, and the tempo was not right. Many new and surprising characters from Lisbeth’s past did not even attract me. Some occurrences were really not necessary, I thought. Whoofff I did not enjoy and finishing this was really such a relief…

Which makes me sad, since Larsson is a very good author, for me, and Lisbeth is such a fictional role model for me(despite her bisexual preferences which I do not buy at all). Well, this forces me to think twice before reading the final installment of this series. I have decided to read it, though, but not now, not in the mean time.

Surprisingly, there was a movie adaptation from this book. I just knew this while I was looking for an e-cover of this book. It starred different actors from The Girl With The Dragon Tattoo. If you were curious, you may take a look IMDB.

* Ksatria, Putri, dan Bintang Jatuh



A local novel created by a famous national author, Dewi Lestari a.k.a Dee (whose birthday is the same with mine hahahahah). This book has been on my to-be-read pile like more than year and a half. and I managed to read this finally because the movie adaptation from this book was gonna be aired. Well, the movie itself was really a meeehhhhhhh, especially the actrees for ‘Bintang Jatuh’, who was really not representing the brain of the Supernova. Fortunately it had Arifin Putra there, who was really absolutely handsome with not-so-disappointing portrayal of Ruben. Uuuu my hubby.

Well, let’s go back to the novel version. I admit now that this novel deserves A HUGE AMOUNT OF FAME AND ATTENTION. I know just by reading only few first chapters of this book that this book is really, really, really well-prepared in advanced. The ending which was quite mysterious in some sense successfully led me to wonder and like, I thought at a glance, that I experience a book-hangover. And I though the ideas there was unexpectedly implanted in my mind, about the white-and-black view of world, the danger of having your mind and principle sold for any currencies instead of your merely body, the emphasized definition of change and creativity is to jump out of system, many more and many more.

Huff my mind was quite blown reading this, like it really was clear that Dee indirectly implanted her ideas, her philosophy to all readers through the characters. I thought she was the one who spoke lol. And I liked that in most scenes there was always a talk about science and it enriched my knowledge and vocabularies too. She is a great author.

I put special interest in Diva kikiki but not the one portrayed in the movie.

Anyway, I am now in the middle of reading Sharp Object by Gyllian Flynn. This is her second novel I read after Gone Girl and rite now, I am in the process of getting a chemistry with Camille, the lead character. Lol

For next, I plan to read :

– Supernova : Akar by Dee

– Oliver Twist by Charles Dickens

– The price of inequality by Joseph E. Stiglitz

I hope I can read a lot this year (55 books minimum!!) and get smarter day by day lollolololol

NB : Anyway, recently I love hearing Automatic by Red Velvet (A South Korean Girl Group). It is about how a person is comfortable being around someone he/she likes that every moves he/she makes just comes automatic as a feedback of their counterparts’ act.

My VERY VERY favorite part of the lyrics :

I love the way, I’m matching my footsteps to yours
It’s already decided, it just comes automatic
I want to continue to stay in the same place as you
It just comes so natural It just comes Automatic

Red Velvet Album Cover

Red Velvet Album Cover

A Quick Review of A Movie You Don’t Wanna Watch For A Date

So marking my comeback as a blog-fellow (ehem), I will make a short and quick review about a movie adapted from a best-selling novel, written by Gillian Flynn. The movie is received well by markets and the main actress seems enjoying quite hilarious amount of money and fame (and she is gorgeous and beautiful and English!!! lol).


Sadly I only have this small-sized e-poster and regretfully I am too lazy to look for another bigger one.

Anyway this movie is starred by Rosamund PIke (this gorgeous beautiful english actress I mentioned before) as Emy Elliot Dunn and Ben Affleck as NIck Dunn, Amy’s husband. Since I already read the novel, I undoubtedly knew while watching about the whole plot, twist, and its roller-coaster (I am just being dramatic). Three things that I am looking for in watching all movies adapted from novels that I read are how all movie crews visualize all things in the story and how the actors gonna live the characters, and as the characters, and the additional values which differ the the novels and the movies. And this applies to ‘Gone Girl’ The Movie too.

Not all movie adaptions from novels reaches my expectation, though. I can count it with my only-ten hand fingers, as a matter of fact. But this movie, THIS MOVIE, really, REALLY, makes me add one more in the list of it.

To sum up why I love this adaptation and why I suggest you to watch this, THE ACTRESS IS FREAKING AWESOME AND BOTH SCREENWRITER AND DIRECTORS ARE FREAKING GENIUS. Probably because the screenwriter is also the original author of the novel.



And then you can feel more about a feminist issues in this movie-version inside the twisted mind of the story. And probably wonder if it is true, that a girl need to be silly to make a boy happy. Or a girl needs to be cool to make a boy stay.

My favorite scene and quote from the movie :







That is all. Like I said, a short and quick review. Well, I hope this is deserved to be called a review













Review Post: TMI 6 – City of Heavenly Fire

The Mortal Instruments : City of Heavenly Fire
Title : City of Heavenly Fire  (The Mortal Instruments, #6)
Author : Cassandra Clare
Publisher : Margaret K. McElderry
Pages : 725 Pages
Year of Publication : 2014
Language : English
Genre(s) : Young Adult, Fantasy, Paranormal, Romance
Bought from : Periplus, Plaza Senayan, Indonesia
Synopsis and Cover Pic : Goodreads
Synopsis :

In this dazzling and long-awaited conclusion to the acclaimed Mortal Instruments series, Clary and her friends fight the greatest evil they have ever faced: Clary’s own brother.
Sebastian Morgenstern is on the move, systematically turning Shadowhunter against Shadowhunter. Bearing the Infernal Cup, he transforms Shadowhunters into creatures out of nightmare, tearing apart families and lovers as the ranks of his Endarkened army swell.

The embattled Shadowhunters withdraw to Idris – but not even the famed demon towers of Alicante can keep Sebastian at bay. And with the Nephilim trapped in Idris, who will guard the world against demons?

When one of the greatest betrayals the Nephilim have ever known is revealed, Clary, Jace, Isabelle, Simon, and Alec must flee – even if their journey takes them deep into the demon realms, where no Shadowhunter has set foot before, and from which no human being has ever returned…

Love will be sacrificed and lives lost in the terrible battle for the fate of the word in the thrilling final installment of the classic urban fantasy series The Mortal Instruments!


Finally, after waiting for like ages, I get to read the very last installment of Cassandra Clare’s The Mortal Instruments series, City of Heavenly Fire. I was kinda annoyed with the fact that I could not have it at the very time the book released in Indonesia due to some issues of my life, like joining a 10-day experiential learning program from office, having some face treatment after struggling so much there, and finally after having time to go to Gramedia, I didn’t find this book there. It was not until I went to Periplus in Plaza Senayan that I grabbed this book and brought it onto cashier very soon. Lol

I really had a huge expectation for this book. I think Clare has done a very good job with the previous books of this series and I really hoped she would end it graciously and happily! Well, the later part was not absolute for me, as long as Clare made it reasonable not to end it happily. At least, the characters’ quality got more developed, especially my favorite ones, Jace, Clary, Simon, and Isabelle. >.<

And, if you asked me whether I got what I want, I would say YES! YES! THE END WAS AS GRACIOUS AND HAPPY AS I EXPECTED! See? And it’s written all-capital! With an exclamation mark! Can you imagine how fulfilled I am?????

So, wanna know a glance about the story and more details of what I meant with the ‘SO GRACIOUS AND HAPPY’? Better scroll down and read my entire review!! =)


On the day Emma Carstairs’ parents were killed, the weather was perfect.

The story has some new characters and it all began with them; Blackthorne’s family from Los Angeles Institute was attacked by Sebastian Morgenstern (Clary’s big brother) and his dark soldiers, the Endarkened (the Shadowhunters who were turned with the Infernal Cup). Sebastian successfully turned the Head of Los Angeles Institute, Andrew Blackthorne, and his daughter, Katerina Blackthorne, to be the Endarkened. Sebastian caught one of his sons, Mark Blackthorne, the twin of Helen Blackthorne (Alice Penhallow’s girlfriend in City of Glass) and half-fairy, half-Shadowhunter to be handed to Seelie Queen. As a matter of fact, there were some kids left in that institute, Julian Blackthorne, the twinnie Tiberius and Livvy Blackthorne, little Dru Blackthorne and the infant Tavvy Blackthorne, and Emma Carstairs, Julian’s best friend. Sebastian knew this but was not interested because they were still too young to be turned; instead, he planned to kill them all. But Julian and Emma called for help to Idris and got out of Los Angeles Institute with a Portal sent from Idris while running from the death.

“…but goodness is not kindness, and there is nothing crueler than virtue.”

 Meanwhile, Jace and Clary still figured out ways to control the heavenly fire, caused by Glorious (Raziel’s sword), inside Jace’s body. Jace who had gotten much closer with Jordan and Simon followed Jordan’s meditation method to keep himself calm, thus leading the fire calmer. But it still didn’t show any result he wanted. He still could not feel too emotional or rage in order not to burn anything. Yes, the fire could really appear and burn what he touched so passionately. That is why Jace and Clary could not kiss too deeply. This is serious, fellas! This is the reason why there was not much intimate scene of them in this installment. =((

The other problem was Sebastian; as long as he was still around, Jace and Clary could never find their mind peaceful, let alone Clary who still couldn’t erase what her brother did to her and his obsession toward her.

Problems happening here is not only Jace’s and Clary’s. Simon struggled with his vampire’s life and now had to face a DTR—define the relationship—with Isabelle; in short, their relationship was left hung with no commitment, mainly because Isabelle didn’t seem to bother. Alec still tried to contact Magnus to apologize without harvesting anything and Maia’s attitude towards Jordan appeared too strange to ignore. But then all of them should distract their mind for awhile when news of Sebastian’s attack on every Shadowhunters’ institute around the world finally reached their very ears.

“No other family does so much for love, or feels so much guilt for it. Don’t carry the weight of the world on you, Jace. It’s too heavey for even a Herondale to bear.”

Jace, Clary, Alec, Isabelle, Jocelyn, and Luke went to Idris to attend Shadowhunters’ meeting to talk about Sebastian. Simon was left with Jordan and Maia because he was an ordinary vampire who did not have any powerful position in The Accord. Moreover, everybody thought he was safer in Brooklyn, especially with Jordan and Maia staying beside him almost 24 hours. Before leaving, Isabelle gave Simon her pendant which could sense a dark or demon’s energy that could help Simon anticipate them. But everything was not going as expected with Simon…

In Idris, there was a meeting held to talk about the attacks. The only institute left so far with people alive was Los Angeles Institute; the kids did arrive in Idris with Portal, as I told you. And they were asked to speak in front of everyone at the moment, giving their truthful witness about the situation while holding the Mortal Sword. Julian Blackthorne, as the oldest, was obliged to do that. Some of you might have known, but some might not, that holding a Mortal Sword is so suffering and Clary had proven it. Then, Julian, a 12-year-old boy, should do that and that is so unbearable, for Emma as his best friend and for Clary who had ever been there.

“All love is precious. It is why we do what we do. Why do we fight demons? Why are they not fit custodians of this world? What makes us better? It is because they do not build, but destroy. They do not love, but hate only.”

“Have you ever felt that you heart contained so much that it must surely break apart?”

“Weapons, when they break and are mended, can be stronger at the mended places. Perhaps hearts are the same.”

So the meeting was held but interrupted in the middle because of Emma who couldn’t bear to see her best friend suffer. In short, after knowing the situation, the meeting decided that they should send some of their Shadowhunters to get the Endarkened; not to destroy them, but to bring them back to Idris and to find a cure to make them as who they were. Jace, Clary, and others who had ever fought them at the Burren knew that was impossible to do. The Endarkened was not only like being possessed by devils; worse than that, they became the devils themselves, with their human bodies. Well, I don’t know how to explain this really well but the conclusion was they could never be back to who they were before. And the Clave would only risk so many Shadowhunters only for something unworthy. Jace told his father, who was also an Inquisitor about this but he didn’t seem to buy it. His father thought Jace only feared Sebastian. At the end, the Clave sent the SHadowhunters to battle the ENdarkened and get them back, with Jace and Clary insinuating between them all.

Without Clary or Isabelle’s knowledge, Simon was attacked by the Endarkened and fortunately he could have detected their presence with the pendant Isabelle gave him so he could anticipate them, along with Jordan and Maia. Simon was asked to flee while Jordan and Maia fought them but when he’s just getting out of their apartment, he was caught by some vampires by order of Maureen, the kid who was a vampire and the clan leader of LA vampire (she had killed Camille) and liked Simon really much. She caged Simon and put on him weird clothes. Simon was almost frustrated at that time, until finally a help came from someone whom he didn’t expect at all.

“You know me. I only have two reactions to bad news. Uncontrollable rage and then a sharp left turn into boiling self-hatred.”

“You’re brave and brilliant, and you’re perfect and I love you. I just love you and I always have. And the actions of some lunatic aren’t going to change that.”

After finishing the Endarkened, Jordan and Maia looked for Simon but couldn’t find him anywhere, near or far. Jordan was frustrated and quite blaming himself, but Maia couldn’t focus herself full on the matter of Simon; she was confused of whether it’s good or not to tell Jordan the thing she hid recently, that she needed to speak up as soon as things got far. But Maia did not think that was the correct time and tried to search for Simon, until suddenly a telephone came from Praetor Lupus, mentioning something about Simon. Jordan was nearly relieved but still finding it hard to fully calm, then he decided to go to Praetor Lupus to find out more and asked Maia to join him, and she approved. They went there but unfortunately, the Praetor Lupus they last saw some times ago was not the same with the One in front of them at the moment. And without their knowledge, something awful was about to catch them and Maia never found any chance to tell Jordan what’s happening with her…

So that’s it about the story. What do you think? Interested enough after reading in a glance? =)

Well, I want to share you more things that will, probably, make you interested with this book and push you to read this…

“It’s good to have people worry about you. It means they care. It’s how you know they’re good friends.”

“I wish I had a parabatai. It’s like someone who’s your family, but because they want to be, not because they have to be.”

First, the writing style; really, Clare really knows how to present her ideas, characters, plot really well! There is something with her style that always makes me couldn’t put the book down for a while and only spent my days on reading page per page (but often interrupted for other priority). She could make me feel like I was in every where the characters are. She really could describe the setting really well, really detailed, and I could picture them well too because of her description. Not to mention the way she joked in the book through every characters, how she could picture Jace, arrkkkhhh!! I love you, Clare! =)

Then, there is the characterization. I can choose my favorite characters but I can never choose my least favorite characters, because even Sebastian actually was… arkh, I will shut my mouth! Lol. I really like the characters there, perhaps because I have some of theirs and that made me easily connected with them. I really love Jace and Simon! Jace with his angelic physics, pride, yet soft heartened and often threw sarcastic jokes which made me craaazzzyyyy and Simon with his unexpected ideas and unexpected words and jokes and how actually he and Jace had cared for each other… Arkkkh the fan girl in me was awakeeeeen. They are my heroes! Lol

Clary herself was amazing! I have really sympathized with her since the beginning of this series. She was really tough and caring for the ones she loves, her mom, Jace, Luke, Simon, everyone around her and tried to protect them. I love how she could be calm and looking for solution to make the situations better. I love how she loves her mom! Lol. She was brave and authentic, confident being who she is.

Isabelle, she was so enchanting! She was bold, strong, beautiful, a speak-up person, yet quite reserved when it comes to telling she loves someone, including Simon. She really loves her family, even though she often throws harsh words towards or about her own parents. She ever made a mistake with Max and ended up regretting the action for almost her whole life, and I think that is make her like really human to me. She was not perfect but still she was really nice and I feel like wanting to be her best friend.

And I spent more than 2 paragraphs for telling you about my favorite characters lol.

By the way, I also put some interest in Emma Carstairs. She was such a cool teen girl, so brave to protect her loved ones, so caring about Julian and his brothers, even though she was quite clumsy in terms of love (and I think it’s appropriate for girls her age).

The last is the story. Some parts of the ending were like what I expected. I don’t think I need to tell you the details, perhaps an overview. The love story is like so happily ended, with a little spicy crunchy twist, and yeah, I like it. The twist is what made the ending unusual for me. I didn’t feel like Clare just put the characters together just to make us, readers, happy. I believe that it was the best for the situation happening, remembering what type of persons the main characters are. Remembering what is actually inside their mind and heart. You may say I just bluff, act like I know what’s on the characters’ mind, what’s on Clare’s mind while she was writing this, but it’s all up to you.

The way Clare put some new characters in this series is approvable. She gave them appropriate roles that showed why these characters are important for the plot, really contributing to the development of the story, not only just an eye-service to give a variation in the story’s moods.

Other thing I love from a whole series is the message about parent-son/daughter relationship. We can see here how a crazy ambition could lead a father, into madness that he made a pact with devil, gave his own son to the darkness even before he was born, how, as a man, Valentine also has made other family and his own broken into pieces. At the end, he got nothing but doomed.

How a mother, to protect her own daughter from their dark past, had to run and run along with her daughter without telling her the truth and carried the sorrow inside her own head.

How a boy could turn into evil because his father had made him be to fulfill what his father called ‘destiny’. A boy, so innocent he should be, turned to the most vicious and heartless man in the world. He was taught love as it is to destroy, hence never he knew what love actually is, how to love someone, and it is just so sad.

I feel so sorry that I hope if I could be given a chance to be a mother, parents, never would I hurt my kids like that. And I thank God that I have the most perfect family I could ever get in this world. =)

Then almost last, and of course not the least : There are two most touching scenes that, I figure, have a deep message about love; First one is when Clary finally told Jace she was raging inside towards Sebastian not only because what’s happening but also for he almost raped her. Jace was so angry and feeling like cutting Sebastian into pieces, how he wanted to be ‘not useless’ for Clary in this situation, and how Clary thought what he said was enough for her. Then when Clary asked him whether he would think of her any different, Jace, without a doubt, answered no. I think it was romantic, how someone sees you so invaluable that even though there is something potentially ‘decreasing’ some parts of you, causing a flaw in you, the man does not care about it and has a willing to go on with you.

The second one is when Jace told Clary how she had changed himself so much, that the cold and perfectionist Jace who always tries to be perfect to be loved (Valentine’s dogma lol), could finally become the quite light-headed Jace that believes there should be forgiveness in love for the flaws in the process of reaching the perfection because Clary showed him so. Yeah, something like that. I am quite like Jace in term of this thing, like I always want to look ‘everything is okay’ with me, that ‘I’m good’ so that everyone will not feel that I am bothering, thus they will feel comfortable near me or even love me hanging around and with them. I never let myself make mistake but if I do, I will blame myself so highly and feel so much guilty. And reading this scene just encourages me to look for an appropriate people that could help me know the world.

By the way, there is also a surprise for you who might have little interest in Brother Zachariah, one of Silence Brother. There is also a character from The Infernal Devices (a prequel of The Mortal Instruments) appearing in this last installment and it kinda pushed me to read that series too. Perhaps I should give it a try. I really like the world created in this novel.

To be more complete, I like Clare’s. I thank her to write this story and inspire me=)

PS : There will be a next ShadowHunters’ adventure!!! Be ready for next year!
I bet Emma Carstairs will become the favorite new character. =)
Rating : 5/5

Review Post: The Perks of Being A Wallflower

The Perks of Being A Wallflower

The Perks of Being A Wallflower
Title : The Perks of Being A Wallflower
Author : Stephen Chbosky
Publisher : MTV Books
Pages : 213 Pages
Year of Publication : 2012 (first published in 1999)
Language : English
Genre(s) : Young Adult, Coming-of-age, Contemporary
Bought from : – ( I got the free e-book ^.^)
Synopsis and Cover Pic : Goodreads
Synopsis :
And while he’s not the biggest geek in the school, he is by no means popular. Shy, introspective, intelligent beyond his year yet socially awkward, he is a wallflower, caught between trying to live his life and trying to run from it.Charlie is attempting to navigate his way through uncharted territory: the world of first dates and mix tapes, family dramas and new friends; the world of sex, drugs, and The Rocky Horror Picture Show, when all one requires is that perfect song on that perfect drive to feel infinite. But he can’t stay on the sidelines forever. Standing on the fringes of life offers a unique perspective. But there comes a time to see what it looks like from the dance floor.

The Perks of Being a Wallflower is a deeply affecting coming-of-age story that will spirit you back to those wild and poignant roller-coaster days known as growing up.




“Do you always think that much, Charlie?”

Here I am now, after a long, long time not updating this lovely place of mine, greeting you with a new book to review, The Perks of Being A Wallflower. Well, not a new piece, but I guess most of people here in Indonesia, especially the teenagers, haven’t read this novel. I really think this is a good novel for teens so it kinda pushes me to ask you, Indonesian teenagers, to read this and meet Charlie.

By the way, I forgot to mention that this book has been adapted into movie, starring Logan Lerman (the most charming man in Hollywood), Emma Watson (an adorable British girl-turned-woman), and Ezra Miller (hooooot!). Some, or perhaps, most of you have watched the movie version and had known the story plot, but I assure you that you need to read the book too! Really!!! Why? I’m gonna tell you!!

Okay, I’m gonna start with the synopsis.

“(To Charlie)He’s a wallflower … You see things. You keep quiet about them. And you understand. “

As you probably already knew, the main character of this story is a 15-year-old boy named Charlie, who just lost his friend, the one and only, who committed suicide and at the same time got in high school with no friends left. Charlie wasn’t really close to anyone outside his family member; the closest one with him is his big bro who’s an excellent baseball player, which brought him to continue his school to Penn State, while his elder sister’s quite hot-blooded but sometimes nice towards him. He with his parents was just like any other kids with their parents, I think. But the most impactful person to him was probably his mother’s late sister, Aunt Helen. Charlie had been so close towards her that he still remembered her in every single thought of his.

“…Even if somebody else has it much worse, that doesn’t really change the fact that you have what you have. Good and bad…I don’t think I have it any better or worse than she does… maybe it’s good to put things in perspective, but sometimes, I think that the only perspective is to really be there…it’s okay to feel things. And be who you are about them.”

And after his friend, Michael, left him to go to another world, Charlie had none to be friend at school. For some times, school days seemed so tough for him. But he never told anyone, not his parents, his sister, even his brother, except his ‘friend’. He wrote a letter to his ‘friend’, containing story of everything happened in his life, thought, feeling, and emotion he had toward people around him, and hope he had for them. He was asked by his therapist to do this due to something ‘disturbing’ from the past that affected him until then, but still unable to be figured out.

But those tough days softened when Charlie could get close with his English teacher, Bill. Charlie enjoyed the class for he had an enjoyment in literature a lot and Bill really was glad with that fact. Bill asked Charlie to read more literatures and write an essay for every book afterwards. Charlie enjoyed it a lot, including the time after class he had with Bill to discuss the book he read. Then more good days came when Charlie got to know Patrick and fell in love with his step sister, Sam, and could get close with both of them.

“Charlie, we accept the love we think we deserve.”

Patrick and Sam were really different with Charlie. Charlie was a vivid thinker, a very sensitive guy, so caring for others’ feeling, and a kind of homie-guy, even his own sister called him freak once. Patrick was quite frantic, so open about what he thought and what he felt, a risk-loving one, a party-guy, and Sam was pretty (according to Charlie), fun, ever known as a ‘blow-girl’ something, but deep inside she had a low self-esteem. Even so, they could hang out together. Patrick and Sam invited Charlie to their life which was containing of party, theater show, Saint-day, and many things, including introducing him to their senior  friends,  Mary Elizabeth (becoming his first girlfriend even though he’s so much in love with Sam), Bob, Craig, and Alice. Charlie finally got to know them deeper.

“I just think it’s bad when a boy looks at a girl and thinks that they way he sees the girl is better than the girl actually is. And I think it’s bad when the most honest way a boy can look at a girl is through a camera. It’s very hard for me to see Sam feel better about herself just because an older boy sees her that way.”

But the thing about Charlie was he kept everything he thought and felt inside himself. And like I said before, he’s a vivid thinker, so vivid that he never actually did things. Almost everything he wanted to do only ended up in his brain. He was too selfless and too sensitive of other people’s feeling that he did not want to tell them what he’s feeling only not to ruin their mood, to hurt their heart. That is why Bill once asked him to ‘participate in life’. That is why Sam told him not to ‘just sit there and … do things’.

Then I feel like hugging Charlie. If he were my brother or friend, I would.

And when I knew what’s going on with him and Aunt Helen back when he was very little, I felt really sad… Actually I have already known from watching the movie, but Charlie told me explicitly what’s happening and it made my heart more…broken? I really can’t comprehend. So terrible =(

“I’m not the way I am because of what I dreamt and remembered about my aunt Helen. That’s what I figured out when things got quiet. And I think that’s very important to know…I know what happened was important and I needed to remember it… I guess we are who we are for a lot of reasons. And maybe we’ll never know most of them. But even if we don’t have the power to choose where we come from, we can still choose where we go from there. We can still do things. And we can try to feel okay about them.”

I don’t know but I really got hooked. The glossaries were just simple and easily understood and the plot itself only had a few twists (and only one significant twist at the end of story) but I was really impressed with Charlie. How complicated his life became, due to his too-much ponderings. How he was able to press his needs and wants for the sake of others. How hard he tried to understand everyone and their motives. How brave he was to fight for his friends. How thoughtful he was. How wise actually he was for his age. And he was only 15.

I wondered how my 15-year-old me had been seven years ago.

But well, Charlie was too self-pushing, right?

I hope all teenagers read this; everything that is parts of teens’ life are summed up well here, dilemma, family problem, sex, drugs, risk-taking moments, love, school. I myself wish I had read this novel back then so that I would not only think about love so shallow, or see myself superior over my friends, and ponder more, think more, care more like Charlie. And for those who have teenage sisters and brothers, especially who loves reading, this book is a recommended gift for them.

“The good news is that I read the book, and because of its fantasy nature, I could pretend that I was in the book. That way I could participate and still read.”

In fact, I am disappointed with my review about this book. I feel like I could not represent what’s on my mind really well. Charlie!!!!! By the way, by reading this novel, I finally figured out why Charlie’s called ‘a wallflower’. Well, the movie explained it but I just couldn’t get it. Perhaps I can through the book for it gave me a greater picture of Charlie’s experience.

One statement that I like from this book  :

“I feel infinite”  

And I do now =)

PS : Though the movie version wasn’t adapting this book fully, I still love it! it’s recommended too for teenagers!!
Rating : 5/5

Review Post: The Fault in Our Stars

The Fault in Our Stars

The Fault in Our Stars
Title : The Fault in Our Stars
Author : John Green
Publisher : Dutton Books
Pages : 318 Pages
Year of Publication : 2012
Language : English
Genre(s) : Young Adult,Romance, 
Bought from : – ( I got the free e-book ^.^)
Synopsis and Cover Pic : Goodreads
Synopsis :
Despite the tumor-shrinking medical miracle that has bought her a few years, Hazel has never been anything but terminal, her final chapter inscribed upon diagnosis. But when a gorgeous plot twist named Augustus Waters suddenly appears at Cancer Kid Support Group, Hazel’s story is about to be completely rewritten.


It’s been a long time since my last review!!It took me long, really long just to finish one book. I made myself read more than 2 books, either fiction or nonfiction, at the same time so that I could go after my reading target this year and also reading target in some challenges I’ve been joining. It was not as easy as deciding which books to buy first, given some pocket money I was received. The time is enough, I think, but the one who uses it did not use it well. I always postponed my plan to continue reading and yeah, no wonder I haven’t finished , like, four books since March. =(And this is it, out of 6 I finally finished two and The Fault in Our Stars is one of the two. I have been really curious with this novel ever since I read the review about this book as well as John Green’s name as the author of this story. I have been interested in his other masterpiece after reading Paper Town so I thought I would like to give this book a try.

“But in fact, depression is not a side effect of cancer. Depression is a side effect of dying.”

First, before I jumped to conclusion, let me share a glance of the story to you. Situations happened in this novel was seen and told through the eye of Hazel Grace,a 16-year-old girl who has a thyroid cancer in her lung. She was unpleasantly and skeptically living her life, befriending but her parents and reading books and novels, repeating her favorite novels, An Imperial Affliction by Peter Van Houten, whom she considered her third friend. Her mother couldn’t bear seeing her like this made her join a Support Group, a group consist of some kids and teens with cancer that met up every week and share their (cancer) fighting story to each others. Hazel did not think this was her thing but she didn’t want to make her mom more difficult so she came every week, without sharing a single story but a single sentence ‘I had a thyroid cancer’ kinda. The only person she could connect with there was Isaac, a 17-year-old boy with an eye cancer. There’s not much talking between them (yet) but their eyes usually met whenever they thought something was too much. And things changed in Hazel’s life, too, because of Isaac (in my opinion lol); once, he brought his friend, Augustus Waters, to the Support Group. He had an appendiceal cancer, making him lose one of his legs, thus, making him wear a prost. From the description Hazel poured, Augustus was really hot. He was so attractive with his crooked smile and muscular body. That’s why Hazel was fascinated, and became more fascinated when he showed much interest in her.

“Sometimes, you read a book and it fills you with this weird evangelical zeal, and you become convinced that the shattered world will never be put back together unless and until all living humans read the book.”

Augustus, or Gus, said she’s so cool, looking like Natalie Portman in V for Vendetta, repeating it like more than twice. Gus so bluntly said that he liked her and wanted to go steady with her. Any girls and women will be like melting as well as feeling confused at the same time, encountering a boy like this. And since then, they became close. Hazel shared her favorite book to him, An Imperial Affliction while Gus told her to read The Prince of Dawn series, asked her to come to his place to play the game version also, with Isaac. Hazel also told him how she really wanted to know the ending of AIA which was left unfinished, how many times she sent letters to Van Houten without ever being replied even once. Gus, who happened to be interested in that book upon reading it, sent an e-mail to Van Houten and got replied. Despite her jealousy, it encouraged Hazel to send Van Houten an e-mail, asking about the ending of the novel. And finally, she got his reply! But unfortunately, the e-mail said that he couldn’t tell her the ending unless they met each other directly, meaning Hazel should go to Amsterdam.

“I’m in love with you, and I’m not in the business of denying myself the simple pleasure of saying true things. I’m in love with you, and I know that love is just a shout into the void, and that oblivion is inevitable, and that we’re all doomed and that there will come a day when all our labor has been returned to dust, and I know the sun will swallow the only earth we’ll ever have, and I am in love with you.”

But things got rough all of sudden. Hazel, who was always thoughtful about how her parents and Gus would keep up living once she’s gone, got recurrence and forced her to attend the hospital. But after this, things got sweeter. After she’s back home, she developed more intimate relationship with Gus and told him that the only way she could find out about the ending of AIA was by going to Amsterdam and meeting Van Houten. In short, with a funding support from an organization concerning themselves in kids and teens with cancer, they’re able to go to Amsterdam and meet Van Houten. Sadly, he wasn’t as cool as what Hazel had extracted from his novel. She couldn’t get to know the ending she was dying to, but she really did not want to pass the chance to be with Gus so she decided to forget about Van Houten and the ending-she-was-damn-curious-about, and had fun with Gus in Amsterdam, including making love hehehihi. The nice thing doesn’t last forever, fella. I really didn’t figure it out before. Yes, it’s soooo improbably unpredictable.

“Oh, I wouldn’t mind, Hazel Grace. It would be a privilege to have my heart broken by you.”

But I will not tell you! Please, read it yourself =3 Though unpredictable, it did not surprise me. Perhaps because this is about cancer so, yeah, there is not much those unexpected things. And I really wished I would have cried so many tears reading this but in fact I didn’t. I don’t know if it’s because I read this in a very distant time that sometimes I forgot how the story had gone, or because I really could not feel the sadness Hazel felt, or it’s just the story that wasn’t really that sad at all. But I did feel touched when it came to Hazel’s parents. Well, you should read it yourself hehe. By the way, most of the narration and dialogue are quotable. They were so beautifully chained to each other =). Anyway, the main character, Hazel Grace, was just so mature for her age. There was no scene that she didn’t talk like a philosopher, a skeptic philosopher for exact. And I think she’s what differed TFIOS with other YA novels whose main character has a cancer; while most of typical stories offer an optimistic character with a great struggle, Hazel’s just so skeptic and perceivably effortless to live her life. She tended to ask ‘why’ to almost everything in her life, but she never questioned why she should be having the cancer. And Augustus, well, I don’t know what to say about him. Compared to Hazel, Gus was more optimistic and willing to leave his trace on others, though he knew he might hurt or even get hurt. He wanted to live his life being useful to other people, showing much love to them, especially Hazel. He was just so damn blunt! I wonder if there is a man or woman able to be so honest about his/her feeling towards the one he/she loves. How he was willing to sacrifice so much for Hazel was just so adorable.

“Do the thing you’re good at. Not many people are lucky enough to be so good at something.”

For teenagers, I think they should read this, especially the teen girls. Hazel is a character that they could learn from; such a skeptic yet brave and loving girl, and instead of crying over her ‘untied’ relationship with Gus, she could cope with her life and found things she could hold onto, things that could help her remember Gus. Even the love story offered is not the cheesy type. I myself learn to be honest with my feeling to people I love, though it may not be so good for me. And that everything has a risk, even in loving itself. But the return of it is great also, so don’t be afraid to love and just take whatever the risk might be. And parents are everything. Hehe.

“You don’t get to choose if you get hurt in this world, old man, but you do have some say in who hurts you. I like my choices. I hope she likes hers.”  

Rating : 4/5